One thing led to another last night and well…
Today I decided to end things with someone because I like him too much. Sounds crazy, and perhaps it is. But I know what it’s like to care about someone who does not feel the same for you and it is not something I care to relive.
On one hand: Am I expecting too much too soon? Why don’t I just tell him how I feel?
On the other hand: I know how someone treats you when he cares. I know how someone sounds when he can’t wait to talk to you, to see you. And that isn’t here.
So I have told this incredibly handsome, smart, funny, sweet, interesting guy that I don’t want to be with him anymore. Just need to keep reminding myself that it’s the right thing for me.
Yawn. It’s been unseasonable cold here, which has led me to have the conversation with myself that always occurs around November/December.
“Why the fuck am I still here?”
“Snow is bullshit, man. This blows.”
“Screw this, I’m getting on a plane tonight. I don’t care if I have to sell my body on the streets when I arrive in California.”
On the plus side, my rich plum lipstick suits the drab weather perfectly.
I do have one reason to smile- I finally got my hands on Lippmann’s Superstar nail polish. I stalked it for months and yes, it was worth the wait.
Please forgive my ragged cuticles.
The closest Chloe kitten comes to smiling. She usually just stares at me like she’s caught me doing something extremely naughty and she’s judging me like a minister’s wife.
This has been sitting in my inspiration folder since I saw it on apartment therapy. It’s so bright and gorgeous, and the prettiest pieces in this picture are super cheap. The daybed is a wood pallet and the chandelier (if it should be called that) is tissue paper and inexpensive chinese lanterns.
Every time I look at this picture, I decide to make my living room look just like this. Then I realize that it wouldn’t fit in with my current decor, my cat would decimate the tissue paper before it even made it to the ceiling. By the way, once I clean my apartment, I plan to take pictures and share with everyone!